I need to stop smoking marijuana?

I have been smoking mari jane for 15 years straight. The last 6 it has been bad!! I am the girl that always has a pipe in her hand! I wake I smoke, I smoke all day, I smoke while I get ready for work, I smoke before I go to work, I think about smoking when i am at work, i smoke when i am on my break, then I go home and smoke till I p out and sometimes wake in the night and smoke then go back to bed!! then wake and do it all over again. I have hated weed for along time! I quit once cause i got into some trouble, so it was not willingly for 6 months and i felt great I was 100% I started smokin and little by little right back to smokin constantly. My husband hates it. it is affecting my relationship. I have tried to quit a few times the past few months but i get so mean to everyone around me and i just give in!! I did not smoke yesterday and have not today and I actually feel cool!!! calm and collective. Yesterday was Pretty emotional!!! any advise or tell me your story?